I am perfectionist at heart. You'd never know it by stopping by my house un-announced in the middle of the week. It's a little "cluttery" around here, but I am working on that.
I planned a Christmas party for my girls and all their little friends. It was to consist of making gingerbread houses, a gift exchange, making Christmas ornaments to take home and of course food! I had never made a free-standing gingerbread house out of graham crackers, but the instructions on the web made it look simple as pie! Needless to say, it wasnt simple as pie. More like the leaning tower of Pisa! There were 9 kids total around my small kitchen table, and the oak colored top was covered in white royal icing. I mean covered. I felt like this was an epic failure. Thank God for my friend Alice, who does this sort of thing every year with her own kids and jumped in, to save the day! We even had a little candy left over!
Next was the gift exchange, it was fine. No worries there. We started to make Christmas ornaments with popsicle sticks and glitter. I am STILL vacuuming glitter out of my living room carpet. In the rush of stepping over sprawled out children all over the floor, I forgot to hot glue the strings to hang the ornaments. Oh well.
We had snacky foods, mini corndogs(not healthy what-so-ever, I know) a veggie tray, chips and drinks.
After 2 1/2 hours of screaming littles, the party was over. I sat that night and thought about everything that went wrong. The gingerbread houses, the ornaments, blah, blah,blah. I have thought so many times over the years whether it was a party I was throwing, a song I was singing for a special occasion......I pick out everything that wrong with it. Everything I did wrong. I do not know why I do this. I am my own worst critic. I stopped myself in that very thought about how this Christmas party would be remembered as a failure............my kids dont think that. They had an absolute blast. They were hanging out with friends, making memories, eating way to much candy and just enjoying the moment. Maybe Mama dosent have all the wisdom. Maybe I should look at things the way my kids do. Life would be so much more enjoyable if I did.
3 comments:
I completely understand! I am always picking at myself for EVERYTHING..I could do the same thing someone else does, yet I am harder on me! What up w/ that Yo?!
I just read the blog about the party and I think you are amazing person, mom and wife. Memories are more important than worry! I so wish my kids were little again I would make so much more FUN memories. As i wipe the tears from my face don't forget they are little for a very short time love them and have fun. I miss you guys so much. love you later
This is a great story of how true and honest you are to reveal to all of us your insecurities. You are truly making special memories for your kids. Just the thought of doing that would make other moms run the other direction. Good job, pat yourself on the back.
Love ya,
Gloria
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